I gave up faith a long time ago. It happened really fast, someone said something that flipped on the "This is bullshit" switch.
It left a void, a hole that used to be "belief" is now "lies". My anger at the continued acts of violence perpetrated by religions gets shoved into that hole.
Life without a god is big and full of love and there's nothing missing from it. Prayers or sermons or worship ceremonies wouldn't add anything to my experience of life. It would just be empty gestures.
If you're really headed this way, get here at your own pace. But know that the faithless are many. They're good people, and they welcome you.